Right in front of my face

Yesterday I lost my school keys. And what followed was a total 100% freakout!! I dug through the trash, had my assistant principal look at the cameras on my hall to see if we could see me with them, called all my friends, and eventually had my husband stand on a ladder and hold a flashlight while I dug through the school dumpster last night. EEWWW!!! And of course I did not find them. I was sick. Just sick. Almost couldn't eat supper. (you notice I said almost) Came to school today heavy hearted as those were my keys to EVERYTHING!! For teachers, our keys are basically our lives. Sad but true. As the department chair, I have the keys to EVERYTHING and of course everything was locked and now I have no keys. After a departmental meeting this morning, I was getting a test for a colleague and opened a FLAT notebook that had been on my desk the whole time and that I had even picked up and moved yesterday during my frantic search and BAM! there were my keys. Right in front of my face. Well hidden by a binder but still. It set me to thinking. I had gotten so upset and tried hard to spread that to all of my friends and loved ones (misery DOES love company) when what I was upset about was right in front of my face. Wonder how often that happens in my day to day life. I worry, stress, and seek for answers or solutions when it is most likely right in front of my face. Last night at supper George prayed and he did ask God to help me find my keys (he sort of snickered when he said it because he just thought it was silly that I was so upset) and I said "God doesn't care about my keys" and he said "I am fairly certain He does." I thought about that and realized that God cares about everything in our lives because He cares for us. He wants that relationship with us. It's not about "lost" keys. It is about US. He cares when we are upset, or stressed, or happy. He wants to share EVERYTHING in our lives. I am starting to find that in everything there is something that God is wanting us to learn. He tries to share with us and sometimes we can't see what is right in front of our face. I want a full time relationship with God. I do. And I work, and worry, and try to do all the things that I think will "get that" for me. How stupid. I learned, with the keys, that the minute I got out of the way, the minute I quit trying to do it all on my own, the minute I just let go.....there they were. I know it seems weird to use lost keys as an analogy to finding a relationship with God but that is how my mind is working today. And it is MY blog after all. I don't have to search and worry and stress about my relationship with the Lord. I don't have to search frantically to find Him. He is right here....waiting for me to let go and let Him, counting the moments until I relax, and look for Him...right in front of my face.